Peace in the solitude2

Yeah I've found my peace in this solitude, from being far away from you and your ignorant ways, no you didn't know how to deal with this fuckin pain, I hid it way down deep inside of me, I'll admit it was nice too drown it down while I was going down on you out in the night under the stary sky, way out in the mountains up high, I thought we were going far, so I wanted to give you it all, but I was just hiding from the person I was, a bad mofokers, taking care of my grandpa in his dieing days, with blacked out truck lifted up, an alcoholic on probation with no license, and now I see that I missed out on making a few more good memories with the man that I will never see again, except in my dreams yeah, I could been rodatillin the garden, eating good during the harvest,instead of being out of state on the run in a state of bliss with a dumb ass bitch that didn't even know who I was or how to love a man that's so broken, broken from all those time I had to break in cuz grandad fell asleep and hasn't gaven me a key yet, broken from the times i had no one to talk to, but still got up and hit the gas, and i let the devils whispers play his part again, it created a Twista like it's ripp in the boards off this foundation, now I'm paying the cost from losing my mind in the time that I lost, you shoulda listened to me from the start, payed off that car, and now what we were and could of been is gone, but that's alright because I'm becoming the man i want to be. I hope you have found your peace because I have found my peace in this solitude.