Sadlove

I still see you on that very first day,

The sunlight in your hair, you blew me away.

A spark in your eyes, a smile so bright,

You were the hope that filled my darkest night.

I fell so hard, a love I'd never known,

A seed of promise in my heart was sown.

You were the angel that I prayed I'd find,

The one to bring me peace of mind.

I gave up the bottle, the whiskey, the haze,

I fought all my demons through those blurry days.

I did it for you, for the hope that you gave,

From the man I once was, myself I tried to save.

I'm sorry for the start, for the man I was then,

But I changed my whole world, to be born again.

I begged for forgiveness, but your heart turned to stone,

And now I just feel so completely alone.

The arguments echo, the silence is cold,

A story of anger, a tale to be told.

You've changed, my love, you're not the same,

You speak to me now with such cold disdain.

I gave you my all, every dream I could build,

But your empty heart was never fulfilled.

Nothing I did was ever enough for you,

I was never the man you wanted me to be, it's true.

I gave up the bottle, the whiskey, the haze,

I fought all my demons through those blurry days.

I did it for you, for the hope that you gave,

From the man I once was, myself I tried to save.

I'm sorry for the start, for the man I was then,

But I changed my whole world, to be born again.

I begged for forgiveness, but your heart turned to stone,

And now I just feel so completely alone.

You're an ungrateful woman, that's what I see now,

The promises broken, the forgotten vow.

The mask has fallen, the truth is laid bare,

A devil who craves what the world has to share.

Money's your god now, not family, not home,

You disrespect all, in this kingdom you roam.

A person so hateful, with no love inside,

Nowhere to run to, and nowhere to hide.

This is a living hell, a cage made of pain,

Trapped in the storm, drowning in the rain.

I've lost the will to live this empty life,

I can't remember joy, just struggle and strife.

Our children are watching, they see how you are,

Their little hearts breaking, beneath a dark star.

All that I long for, all that I need,

Is a moment of peace, a loving, kind deed.

Just peace in my heart, and a quiet retreat,

But you give me a battle I cannot defeat.

I just wanted love. I just wanted peace.