I sit alone the clock won't tick
My thoughts run deep my heart feels sick
The paper stares it knows my pain
Words pour out like a heavy rain
The mirror breaks it shows my soul
A thousand pieces I can't control
The pen it shakes but it still writes
A scream trapped in the dead of night
But in the dark I hear a sound
If I do it I be hell bound
A voice said hold on just one more day
The dawn might bring a brand new day
I fold the note and set it down
If words could talk but i don't hear a sound
Looking for hope looking for a glow
The fight looks over I think i better go
I'm writing these words I can't erase
Tears fall down and stain the page
In this silence I must decide
My suicidal note confides what's deep inside
Gallon of tears
I'm trapped inside my own head
Wrestling with words that need to be said
Shadows creeping where light once shed
Feeling like my souls already dead
Me myself and I in the empty night
Fighting battles but I lost the fight
Dreams fading fast like a nose diving kite
Darkness hugs me it's my only light
As I keep searching for a reason to stay
I try to have faith but the pain won't go away
Trying to hold on but this goes on everyday
Will someone catch me if I fall astray
Lost in my mind no way out
Silent screams but there's no way out
Try to stay afloat but I'm drowning in the doubt
Wondering to myself is this is what life's about
I'm writing these words I can't erase
Tears fall down and stain the page
In this silence I must decide
My suicidal note confides what's deep inside
Gallon of tears
Now I'm swimming deep in a sea of doubt
Shadows creeping I can't climb out
A thousand voices screaming in my head
Echoes of the words I wish I never said
I'm starring at the mirror but I don't see me
Just a stranger like my pops I'm in misery
Faking smiles yeah I wear that disguise
But you could see theough it if you look in my eyes
Every drops a story I can't erase
Memories linger they're taking up space
Trying to breathe but the weight is too strong
Every moment feels like I don't belong
Late night silence is my only friend
Wonder if this lonely road will ever end
Carrying this weight it's a heavy cost
But in this flood I'm scared to get lost
Gallon of tears
Gallon of tears feeling up my soul
Pouring like rain it's out of control
Drowning in the pain it's pulling me near
Sinking in the flood of this gallon of tears
I'm writing these words I can't erase
Tears fall down and stain the page
In this silence I must decide
My suicidal note confides what's deep inside
Gallon of tears
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