[Verse 1]
Yeah
I don’t get close
I get cautious
Smile on my face
But I’m nauseous
You say “trust me
” that’s a problem
Every “I love you” feels like a promise
You think we’re good
I get quiet
Replay old hurt like it’s habit
You wanna talk
I go silent
I learned attachment feels like a trap
Yeah
You reach for my hand
I flinch
You call that sweet
I call that a risk
You call it us
I call it a cliff
You see a future
I see a myth
Every good morning’s a countdown
Every “goodnight” sounds like “stay”
I don’t fall in
I fall down
So I push your whole heart away
[Chorus]
I’m not scared of being lonely
I’m scared you’ll get to know me
Then you’ll pack your bags and go
When you see the parts I don’t show
I’m not scared of saying “never”
I’m scared of saying “forever”
‘Cause forever turns to “we’re done”
And I’m the only broken one
Yeah
Relationships
That’s the thing I’m most afraid of
[Verse 2]
You want pics on the fridge
I see pieces
You see dinners
I see empty seats
You hear love songs
I hear exits
You hear laughter
I hear concrete
My past taught me people get tired
First they adore you
Then they go quiet
First they chase you
Then they’re distant
Then they tell you “it’s just different”
So I keep jokes on the surface
Keep the deep stuff in a basement
You say “what’s wrong?” I say “nothing”
Then resent you for not chasing
You call that twisted
I call it safe
Self-sabotage in a pretty frame
You want truth? Here’s some honest
You feel like peace
I feel like a problem
[Chorus]
I’m not scared of being lonely
I’m scared you’ll get to know me
Then you’ll pack your bags and go
When you see the parts I don’t show
I’m not scared of saying “never”
I’m scared of saying “forever”
‘Cause forever turns to “we’re done”
And I’m the only broken one
Yeah
Relationships
That’s the thing I’m most afraid of
[Bridge]
How do I stay when leaving’s all I learned?
How do I trust when every touch still burns?
You call it love
I call it losing control
You want my heart
I’m just guarding the door
I know this distance hurts you
It’s killing me too
I’m fighting the urge to run
Every time I say “I love you” (oh)
[Chorus]
I’m not scared of being lonely
I’m scared you’ll get to know me
Then you’ll pack your bags and go
When you see the parts I don’t show
I’m not scared of saying “never”
I’m scared of saying “forever”
‘Cause forever turns to “we’re done”
And I’m the only broken one
Yeah
Relationships
That’s the thing I’m most afraid of