[Verse 1]
I wake up already braced
For a door that slams in my chest
Every footstep in the hall
Sounds like trouble dressed in flesh
My jaw stays locked all day
My shoulders live up near my ears
I read the room for danger
Even when nobody's here
[Pre-Chorus]
And I hate what I became
To survive what made me this way
I keep checking every shadow
Like it might say my name
[Chorus]
I'm still here, I'm still here
Even when it gets too near
I'm still here, I'm still here
Through the smoke inside my head
I'm still here, I'm still here
Learning how to live instead
(I'm still here)
[Verse 2]
You were kind with a knife
That still left a mark on my skin
I mistook the hurt for love
Kept going back again and again
Therapy on a folding chair
Telling truths I couldn't say
Hands shaking round a paper cup
While the rain counted the day
[Pre-Chorus]
And I hate what I became
To survive what made me this way
I keep checking every shadow
Like it might say my name
[Chorus]
I'm still here, I'm still here
Even when it gets too near
I'm still here, I'm still here
Through the smoke inside my head
I'm still here, I'm still here
Learning how to live instead
(I'm still here)
[Bridge]
If I flinch, don't call me weak
It's just my body keeping score
If I hear a voice at night
I know that fear can want more
But I light one small hard truth
And I hold it like a flame
I am not the wreckage
I am not the shame
[Final Chorus]
I'm still here, I'm still here
Even when it gets too near
I'm still here, I'm still here
I can see through all the red
I'm still here, I'm still here
Learning how to live instead
(I'm still here)
(I'm still here)