Standing in the ash

I learned my face again

In the bathroom glass

Took the old keys off my chain

Threw away the past

I bought new sheets

White as a lie

Now the sink is full

Of who I used to be last night

But the door still knows my hand

The floor still names my steps

And every little habit

Comes crawling back again

I lost the new me

I lost the new me

The one I built

With shaking hands

And the old me came back

The old me came back

Like a house I burned

Still standing in the ash (still standing)

I lost the new me

I lost the new me

And I hate how easy

It came back again

I let one bad day

Pick the lock

Then one small thought

Turned the whole thing off

Now I hear my own voice

Mean and thin

Saying "you always do this"

Like it never left my skin

I had a name for peace

I had a plan for light

But the dark I fed for years

Still knows the route inside

I lost the new me

I lost the new me

The one I built

With shaking hands

And the old me came back

The old me came back

Like a house I burned

Still standing in the ash (still standing)

I lost the new me

I lost the new me

And I hate how easy

It came back again

If I claw my way back out

Will I know my own face?

If I start again tonight

Will it stay?

I don't want to be

What hurt me then

But I'm scared the door

Won't stay shut again

I lost the new me

I lost the new me

The one I built

With shaking hands

And the old me came back

The old me came back

Like a house I burned

Still standing in the ash (still standing)

I lost the new me

I lost the new me

Still I reach for who

I was trying to become (trying to become)

I lost the new me

I lost the new me

But I swear I know

He's in me somewhere