[Verse 1]
I learned my face again
In the bathroom glass
Took the old keys off my chain
Threw away the past
I bought new sheets
White as a lie
Now the sink is full
Of who I used to be last night
[Pre-Chorus]
But the door still knows my hand
The floor still names my steps
And every little habit
Comes crawling back again
[Chorus]
I lost the new me
I lost the new me
The one I built
With shaking hands
And the old me came back
The old me came back
Like a house I burned
Still standing in the ash (still standing)
I lost the new me
I lost the new me
And I hate how easy
It came back again
[Verse 2]
I let one bad day
Pick the lock
Then one small thought
Turned the whole thing off
Now I hear my own voice
Mean and thin
Saying "you always do this"
Like it never left my skin
[Pre-Chorus]
I had a name for peace
I had a plan for light
But the dark I fed for years
Still knows the route inside
[Chorus]
I lost the new me
I lost the new me
The one I built
With shaking hands
And the old me came back
The old me came back
Like a house I burned
Still standing in the ash (still standing)
I lost the new me
I lost the new me
And I hate how easy
It came back again
[Bridge]
If I claw my way back out
Will I know my own face?
If I start again tonight
Will it stay?
I don't want to be
What hurt me then
But I'm scared the door
Won't stay shut again
[Final Chorus]
I lost the new me
I lost the new me
The one I built
With shaking hands
And the old me came back
The old me came back
Like a house I burned
Still standing in the ash (still standing)
I lost the new me
I lost the new me
Still I reach for who
I was trying to become (trying to become)
I lost the new me
I lost the new me
But I swear I know
He's in me somewhere
