God I come before you . I feel sad ,anxious and lonely. Don’t know what to do. I wish he would have treated me better. That he care for my emotions. I’m sick and tired of feeling like an option. My feelings not considered or respected. I cry , I cry . why? why? why? Do I keep on falling in to this pattern. He would make me feel self conscious. Always making comments. Making comments on other women , Almost like comparing me to them . Left me feeling less. I would ask myself, Am I not good enough for you? After everything that we’ve gone through . Left me feeling like a second option . All I wanted was to be loved and understood. God please heal my heart and help me get through . I take these feelings and lay them down before you. I’m here crying to you . I know you hear me please come through. I don’t know what comes next . I care about him still and love him but I don’t know if I could do this any longer . Wish things would change . All I ask is that you heal my heart and give me strength . Make it strong to endure what ever happens next . I lay him in your hands . I love him but holding on is killing me instead. Heal his heart too. I’m so confused. No matter what people say it’s not getting through . What’s wrong with me ? I’m not ok. Why do I stay ? I know I deserve better but it’s hard to let go , don’t want to stay this way. Lord please help me see this through .take away the hurt . I can’t do it without you. All I ever dreamed was of finding someone that completely understands. That when I express my feelings they don’t get mad. Someone who respects me and cares about what I think. That after you makes me a priority. I have a huge heart and so much to give but , sometimes I doubt myself because of what I’m living. But I know you will rescue me and have that special someone for me. Someone that I could have a family and grow old with. But in the meantime help me get through this. May my love for you grow deep. I cry at night help me please. Lord forgive me when I don’t believe I know you’re working and have plans for me . It’s just hard to see it when negativity is surrounding me . Don’t get me wrong I’m thankful for everything else . All the things that you’ve blessed me with .I put them high on the shelves. Thank you for my family , job ,car and health. Father if I’m being honest what I really need is a hug from you tonight. A hug so tight that will make me feel everything will be alright. Father please hold me tight. This anxiety is killing me . My nerves are on fight or flight. The hurt , the blame , or is it just me? Am I alright ? I want to cry. I know I’m not the only one going through this . Father help all the other women who identify with this. Thank you lord ,your name I bless . Thank you lord I know I’m a mess. But your word says you love me anyways. You know my heart ,I can’t fool you . Help me become a better person for you. I know you hear my plea , I trust you .
