Close to the edge!

[Verse 1 ]
Close to the edge no turning back. like for real where my mind went I don't cut myself no slack. in fact my overthinking really fucks my mind up. I'm like a toy you over wind up . move so fast I get stuck,  yet so slow that I burn up. that's just my energy with my mind and  my spirit too. I place  em up against the ropes but then i  go harder to push em through.  No retreat or defeating me will hold true. 

[Bridge] 
Money talks and bullshit walks. ( its a fact) I believe only  half of what i see. (No cap) I want you but dont feel the love back. Tell me why do we? (Do we) Have all the tools and all the parts but struggle still to build...

[Chorus]
So far away yet close enough to kill.  What is it you want? Me id  just like to feel. Maybe like something real. 

[Verse 2 ]
So tell me why . is it when you look in my eyes, everytime you lie. do you do it effortlessly with nothing in  your eyes ? To be honest im not surprised. It just complicates our life.  This life is like the start of  a game! leave it all the chance a coin flip is the same. No hiding in the smoke screen  this means its  more to me than  it is to you is how it seems.  I wish that I could control,  I guess the way you do the things you do. drives me crazy,  but still I say it's true. and even through the bullshit the only one I want is you! this is more than I can really understand! it takes all I got to form a plan. but to stick with that shit, for real to me, is about as hard as it get. im a household name with a face you cant forget. Im a smooth sound of winning like a swoosh to a net. Mind stays sinning so my spirits in debt. 

[Chorus]
So far away yet close enough to kill.  What is it you want? Me id  just like to feel. Maybe like something real. 

[Verse 3]
Come on  baby lets go dutch treat me real good.  and ill make sure lil mama your never misunderstood . Fuck That damn phone really holds you back.  Its all you see as real and thats fact.  inside it you  hold lies and even created a plot. 
To bad it doesnt keep the secrets when ever the street starts to talk.
I hate how every guy you ever knew claims how you fucked. but this shits getting old im about to give up. I mean  every fucking body they make you sound like a slut. Obviously your sending messages or pumping out signs. Says Hey im available and you can be mine. So i at time just ask my self why. How can i love you but want us to die. Not really but yes why? I wish i could fathom how the spirit will work. I wish i knew how i can love  when im  batttling hurt. They call it bittersweet atleast for what is it worth.

[Chorus]
So far away yet close enough to kill.  What is it you want? Me id  just like to feel. Maybe like something real. 
[Bridge] 
Money talks and bullshit walks. ( its a fact) I believe only  half of what i see. (No cap) I want you but dont feel the love back. Tell me why do we? (Do we) Have all the tools and all the parts but struggle still to build...

[Chorus]
So far away yet close enough 

rap, trap, hip hop, white male voice! woman for chorus only