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I’m destroying you ... not on purpose but it’s clear- 
I’ve been avoiding the truth of how you hold CLOSE to you so dear, 
. I think I’m fallen already and I know you have no intentions to feel-
 of making this anything more  or anything real, 
But we both seek out the pleaseure to make real a fantasy-
Of endless love sex ;idolization ;is insanity-
So we’ve both gone insane in the world we call reality ,
Lost in illusions delusions to boost your sense of vanity , 
Hope that we are forgiven in the eyes of the used -
Hope they are forgiven for staying knowing the strength of the  abuse - 
And I’ll praise the one who is driven through out which way they will choose - 
No matter what way we look at it eventually both of us will lose ..
There’s definitely no escaping it , the hit before the bruise , 
The spark before the fuse,
The donts before the dos
The doubts before we choose 
The game intrigues  with clues 
Red flags in sheets of blues .

Chillstep