Not

I’m destroying you ... not on purpose but it’s clear-

I’ve been avoiding the truth of how you hold CLOSE to you so dear,

. I think I’m fallen already and I know you have no intentions to feel-

of making this anything more or anything real,

But we both seek out the pleaseure to make real a fantasy-

Of endless love sex ;idolization ;is insanity-

So we’ve both gone insane in the world we call reality ,

Lost in illusions delusions to boost your sense of vanity ,

Hope that we are forgiven in the eyes of the used -

Hope they are forgiven for staying knowing the strength of the abuse -

And I’ll praise the one who is driven through out which way they will choose -

No matter what way we look at it eventually both of us will lose ..

There’s definitely no escaping it , the hit before the bruise ,

The spark before the fuse,

The donts before the dos

The doubts before we choose

The game intrigues with clues

Red flags in sheets of blues .