I’m afraid

Verse 1

Eyes wide open in the dark,
Waiting for the morning to start.
Alarm cuts through the quiet room,
Hand reaches out — five more minutes.

Ceiling cracks become a map,
Tracing exits I don’t have.
Sunlight leaks around the blind,
But it doesn’t reach my mind.

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Pre-Chorus

Force a smile.
Start the day.
Hold it all back.

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Chorus 1

All I want is a hug —
But I’m too scared to touch.

I’m in pain and I can’t contain
What’s breaking through the cracks.

How do I say I need some help
When I don’t think I deserve it —
I’m not worthy.

I’m falling apart,
I need someone now.

But I’m afraid.

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Verse 2

Work the hours that I can,
Even when I barely stand.
Call it focus, call it drive —
Really just trying to survive.

Daylight, nightlight — passing time,
Let the noise outrun my mind.
Distraction feels like oxygen,
So I breathe it in again.

I smile.
I laugh.
I joke.
I talk.

Keep the rhythm, hit the mark.

But underneath it, something aches —
A quiet hurt I can’t escape.

Just in pain,
Hiding from the world.

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Pre-Chorus

I don’t need fixing.
I don’t need saving.
I just don’t want
To feel like I’m fading.

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Chorus 2

All I want is to hold your hand —
But I’m too scared to touch.

I’m in pain and I can’t contain
What’s breaking through the cracks.

How do I say I need some help
When I don’t think I deserve it —
I’m not worthy.

I’m breaking down,
I need someone now.

But I’m afraid.

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Verse 3

Conversation flows around me,
Laughter blurred and muffled sound.
Voices rising, glasses clink —
But I feel nowhere to be found.

Am I here?
Or just a shape
Sitting in a familiar place?

This is home.
This is safety.
Same warm light I’ve always known.

Same hope in the air between us —
And yet I fade alone.

I can’t keep up with what they’re saying,
Words move faster than my mind.
I’m lost inside a crowded room,
Just sitting there — behind.

I’m here.

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Bridge (Build to Scream)

Can anyone hear me scream
When I don’t make a sound?

Why can’t I feel?
Why am I numb?

My heart beats so fast —
I can’t catch up.
It’s like I’m out of time.

I’m falling through the cracks,
Slipping out of sight.

My brain betrays me —
Tells me I’m not worth the fight.

I’m not worth any help.
I’m not worth anyone’s —

TIME.

I just want to be able
To hold someone —

Before I lose my mind.

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Final Chorus (Broken / Stripped)

All I want is to be able to touch —
To reach out.

But I’m scared.

I’m in pain…
And I can’t contain
What’s breaking through the cracks.

How do I say I need some help
When I don’t think I deserve it —
I’m not worthy.

I’m breaking down…
I need someone now.

But I’m afraid.

I’m so afraid.

Pop rock, emotional, desperate, sad, raw, Female lead singer.