I’m afraid

Verse 1

Eyes wide open in the dark,

Waiting for the morning to start.

Alarm cuts through the quiet room,

Hand reaches out — five more minutes.

Ceiling cracks become a map,

Tracing exits I don’t have.

Sunlight leaks around the blind,

But it doesn’t reach my mind.

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Pre-Chorus

Force a smile.

Start the day.

Hold it all back.

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Chorus 1

All I want is a hug —

But I’m too scared to touch.

I’m in pain and I can’t contain

What’s breaking through the cracks.

How do I say I need some help

When I don’t think I deserve it —

I’m not worthy.

I’m falling apart,

I need someone now.

But I’m afraid.

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Verse 2

Work the hours that I can,

Even when I barely stand.

Call it focus, call it drive —

Really just trying to survive.

Daylight, nightlight — passing time,

Let the noise outrun my mind.

Distraction feels like oxygen,

So I breathe it in again.

I smile.

I laugh.

I joke.

I talk.

Keep the rhythm, hit the mark.

But underneath it, something aches —

A quiet hurt I can’t escape.

Just in pain,

Hiding from the world.

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Pre-Chorus

I don’t need fixing.

I don’t need saving.

I just don’t want

To feel like I’m fading.

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Chorus 2

All I want is to hold your hand —

But I’m too scared to touch.

I’m in pain and I can’t contain

What’s breaking through the cracks.

How do I say I need some help

When I don’t think I deserve it —

I’m not worthy.

I’m breaking down,

I need someone now.

But I’m afraid.

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Verse 3

Conversation flows around me,

Laughter blurred and muffled sound.

Voices rising, glasses clink —

But I feel nowhere to be found.

Am I here?

Or just a shape

Sitting in a familiar place?

This is home.

This is safety.

Same warm light I’ve always known.

Same hope in the air between us —

And yet I fade alone.

I can’t keep up with what they’re saying,

Words move faster than my mind.

I’m lost inside a crowded room,

Just sitting there — behind.

I’m here.

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Bridge (Build to Scream)

Can anyone hear me scream

When I don’t make a sound?

Why can’t I feel?

Why am I numb?

My heart beats so fast —

I can’t catch up.

It’s like I’m out of time.

I’m falling through the cracks,

Slipping out of sight.

My brain betrays me —

Tells me I’m not worth the fight.

I’m not worth any help.

I’m not worth anyone’s —

TIME.

I just want to be able

To hold someone —

Before I lose my mind.

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Final Chorus (Broken / Stripped)

All I want is to be able to touch —

To reach out.

But I’m scared.

I’m in pain…

And I can’t contain

What’s breaking through the cracks.

How do I say I need some help

When I don’t think I deserve it —

I’m not worthy.

I’m breaking down…

I need someone now.

But I’m afraid.

I’m so afraid.