We don’t talk like we used to

I used to talk to You every night,

Back when fear was louder than pride.

Before I learned to fake control,

Before the bottle filled the hole.

Now I mumble once or twice a year,

When the dark gets close or the end feels near.

We don’t talk like we used to do,

It ain’t Your fault — I just slipped through.

Built my life with my own two hands,

But now I see it was built on sand.

I ain't askin' for a brand-new start...

Just maybe some light in the cracks of my heart.

I cussed Your name more times than prayed,

Chose the long road when You showed the way.

I bought peace in borrowed time,

Traded grace for a sharper line.

And I’ve worn this shame like a second skin,

Now it’s tight in the chest where the breath comes thin.

We don’t talk like we used to do,

I still remember the sound of You.

But the silence got loud, and the pride got tall,

And I stopped pickin’ up when You’d call.

Now the mirror shows what I’ve been blind to...

That I miss the days

When I talked to You.

Don’t need a sign, don’t need the sky to break...

I just need to know

You’re still awake.

We don’t talk like we used to do,

But tonight I ain’t got nothin’ to prove.

No deals, no vows, no perfect man —

Just calloused hands and a tremblin’ stand.

If You’re still there in the silence, too...

Then I’m still here.

And I still need You.