After two years

It’s been two and a half years, still stuck in your name

Every thought I have somehow circles back the same

I’ve tried new faces, new places, new nights

But you’re the ghost that never leaves my mind

You walk through rooms with a crowd by your side

Laughing so loud like you’ve already won life

And yeah, you’re charming, but you’re careless too

You break things easy like it’s nothing to you

Pre-Chorus

My friends say, “Girl, you deserve way more”

They don’t see what I see when you close that door

Chorus

‘Cause you’re kind of an asshole, I know that it’s true

But I’d still forgive you for the hell that you do

You’ve got a hundred friends, I’ve got only you

In my head, in my heart, in the things I don’t say

I push everyone away, every maybe, every name

‘Cause none of them are you, and they’re all just the same

And the more that time goes on, the harder it gets

I don’t know how to forget

Verse 2

I replay every moment like it’s brand new

Every “almost”, every lie, every truth

You hurt me bad, but you felt like home

And somehow being alone feels worse than being wrong

You don’t even know the power you hold

How you live in my silence, how you live in my soul

I hate that I’d run back if you just called

Like I never learned anything at all

Pre-Chorus

They tell me love shouldn’t feel like a fight

But you’re the only war I still wanna survive

Chorus

Yeah, you’re kind of an asshole, I know that it’s true

But I’d still forgive you for the hell that you do

You’ve got a hundred friends, I’ve got only you

In my head, in my heart, in the things I don’t say

I push everyone away, every maybe, every name

‘Cause none of them are you, and they’re all just the same

And the more that time goes on, the harder it gets

I don’t know how to forget

Bridge

Maybe one day I’ll wake up and you won’t be there

Maybe your name won’t catch in the back of my prayers

I wanna move on, yeah I swear that I do

But letting go feels like losing you

Last Chorus

You’re still kind of an asshole, still breaking my rules

But I’m tired of bleeding for someone so cruel

I don’t wanna live stuck inside yesterday

I don’t wanna keep pushing the right ones away

So if time keeps moving, maybe I’ll let it win

Maybe loving you doesn’t mean letting you in

And the more that life goes on, maybe I’ll get it right

Learn how to forget you… one night at a time