Rain In My Hoodie

Eyes on the ceiling

Phone on the floor, still blinking

Left all your texts on read

'cause I ain't got words, just thinking

Cold cup of coffee

Same hoodie three days straight

Friends say I'm distant

I just say I'm running late

I put the rain in my hoodie

Hide my face, let it pour inside

Everybody say they knew me

They ain't seen the nights I barely survived

Yeah, I'm good, that's the lie I repeat

But I'm breaking in the backseat

I put the rain in my hoodie

So nobody sees me cry

Scroll through your pictures

Heart doing laps in my chest

You smiling out in the sunlight

I'm stuck here, fully dressed

Mama keep calling

Says, "Come eat, you gotta try"

I tell her I already ate

While my plate staying bone dry

Talking to the mirror like, "Who that?"

Red eyes, dark bags, all facts

Every little scar got a story

But I laugh it off when they ask

[low vocal register] I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine

[whispered vocals] I ain't fine at all