Verse 1
I’m running circles through another sleepless night,
Another “you’ll be fine” that never makes it right.
Everybody calls when they’re about to drown,
I pull them to the surface while I’m sinking down.
I’m always there when somebody breaks,
Holding together what they couldn’t take.
But when my world starts coming apart,
It’s just me talking to the dark.
Pre-Chorus
I’m so sick of carrying everyone else,
While I’m falling through myself.
Chorus
I’ve got dead eyes and a fake smile,
Been pretending that I’m okay for a while.
I gave away my life jacket again,
Just to watch somebody else swim in.
I’m so tired of being told
How I’m supposed to heal, how I’m supposed to cope.
The last spark burning in my sky
Is hoping you’ll come back… someday.
Verse 2
Everybody’s got a map for my mistakes,
Like they know every road that my heart takes.
They tell me, “Move on,” like it’s that easy,
Like love’s just another shirt you leave.
They never felt the weight I carry,
Never counted every memory.
They only see the smile I wear,
Not the thousand-yard stare.
Pre-Chorus
I’ve been everybody’s safety net,
But nobody catches me yet.
Chorus
I’ve got dead eyes and a fake smile,
Been pretending that I’m okay for a while.
I gave away my life jacket again,
Left myself beneath the waves again.
I’m so tired of everyone deciding
What my heart should be surviving.
The last hope keeping me alive
Is believing we’ll get another try.
Bridge
Maybe I’m broken… maybe I’m bent.
Maybe I gave more than I ever had to spend.
But I’d still throw the rope if you called my name—
Guess some parts of me will never change.
And don’t tell me how this feels.
You weren’t there for every scar that never healed.
You don’t get to write my ending,
When I’m still here fighting through it.
Final Chorus
These dead eyes and this fake smile,
Been carrying them for miles and miles.
Still giving pieces of myself away,
Even when I’ve got nothing left to save.
I’m so tired… but I still believe.
Maybe that’s what’s killing me.
‘Cause the last light left inside my soul
Still whispers that you’re coming home.
So I’ll keep breathing through the pain,
Even if nothing feels the same.
One day these dead eyes might see the sun…
Until then, I’ll keep holding on.
Lucent_Ash
