Spinnin

I be so timeless, I speak so mindless, I resonate with things that contradict my kindness,

oh,-please don’t mind this, I forgot to charge it up-my social battery is in the minus,

I know that I won’t find it, I’m searching for a piece of pleasure labeled as the finest.

I swear I know no better, tried my best to forget her, I need to move to new things,

My thoughts be having mood swings,

My ex told me she’ll only be happy if I just let her,

My biggest letdown, is- she told me I can hit if I admit it,

-the fact that I don’t love her no more, I pushed myself to make it but -I don’t really know if I can fake it no more,

But the story goes on, my time to build a new home, but if that don’t seem to work I’ll have to take the boat home,

Smooth criminal, I dodge relationships so much some times I feel invisible,

Will prolly catch up in time but now I’m finna do, everything I wanted and needed-heart was in pieces-but right now I’m writing poems into treasures like it’s a thesis.

Tell me how I’m s’posed to heal with these wounds wide open?

Still got her name in my phone, but we don’t be spoken…

Sometimes I stare at the ceiling, just hoping—

That the peace I’ve been chasin’ ain’t just a moment…

I gave too much, they gave me silence,

Heart got bruised, now I move in silence,

Tried to fix love, but I lost alignment,

So now I just write—

Pain into poems, truth into diamonds.

I can’t fake what I don’t feel no more,

I done walked through hell just to close that door,

They say time gon’ heal—but I’m still sore,

Ain’t no map for this, I just move pure.