[Intro]
Yeah
Mm
(It’s heavy)
[Chorus]
I been walkin’ round in porcelain armor
One crack, I’m a goner, I know
Smile on my face for the cameras
Inside it’s a war I don’t show
If I vanish in the late December
Would anybody say “don’t go”?
Porcelain armor, cold as ever
You touch me, I’ll break, not glow
[Verse 1]
Left my phone on read for a week straight
Still I check it like it might change fate
Sleepin’ in a hoodie on the floor these days
Got a bed, but it feels too safe
Friends hit, say they “worried ’bout me”
Send hearts, but they never come see
I’m the joke in the group chat, half the time
Half ghost in my own damn life
[Chorus]
I been walkin’ round in porcelain armor
One crack, I’m a goner, I know
Smile on my face for the cameras
Inside it’s a war I don’t show
If I vanish in the late December
Would anybody say “don’t go”?
Porcelain armor, cold as ever
You touch me, I’ll break, not glow
[Verse 2]
Yeah
Talk tough, but I bruise too easy
Play strong so you don’t see me
Heart like glass in a thrift store shelf
Chip by chip, did it to myself
Scroll past wins I can’t relate to
Blue check lives I will never break through
Mama say I’m “blessed, keep prayin’”
I been talkin’ to the ceiling, but it ain’t sayin’
[Rap Verse]
Late nights, eyes red, mind racin’ in circles
Tryna draw a straight line through a page full of hurdles
I was raised on “man up,” never raised on “feel”
Now I’m bleedin’ in the dark, call it stainless steel
Everybody want the image, not the inner monologue
Only love me when I’m winnin’, when I’m trendin’ like a song
If I open up a little, they gon’ say that I’m “dramatic”
But if I die from all this silence, they gon’ turn it to a caption (that’s tragic)
I been duckin’ every mirror like it owe me an apology
Talkin’ like I’m fine, but that’s a broke philosophy
Sad boy aura, but the pain ain’t pretty
Tears dry up, still the chest feel heavy
I don’t want a pity party, I just want a real call
Someone who can see the fracture in the smile on the wall
If I fall, will anybody reach down, grab me?
Or just say “damn, that’s crazy” like it’s nothin’ that happened
[Chorus]
I been walkin’ round in porcelain armor
One crack, I’m a goner, I know
Smile on my face for the cameras
Inside it’s a war I don’t show
If I vanish in the late December
Would anybody say “don’t go”?
Porcelain armor, cold as ever
You touch me, I’ll break, not glow
[Bridge]
Yeah I’m tired of bein’ “almost fine”
Tired of sayin’ “I’m good,” then lie
If you really wanna know my mind
It’s a house with the lights off, locked inside
[Chorus]
I been walkin’ round in porcelain armor
One crack, I’m a goner, I know
Smile on my face for the cameras
Inside it’s a war I don’t show
If I vanish in the late December
Would anybody say “don’t go”?
Porcelain armor, cold as ever
You touch me, I’ll break, not glow