Shadows of My Mind

Lost in my mind, trapped between doubt and hope

Hoping for a sign, trying just to cope

One of those days, feeling sick and unsure

Questions in my head, trying to find what’s pure

Moment by moment, doubting my own worth

Wondering if I’ll ever find my place on earth

Trying to breathe through the storm inside

Fighting the noise that's amplified

Calling on Monday, just to get some relief

Hoping meds can bring me some peace

Can I find my way? Can I break free?

From these chains that keep haunting me

Is there still a light? Somewhere I can see?

Chasing hope in the shadow of my history

Ottawa's cold, alone in my head

Shadows of past, words I wish I never said

External chaos, inside’s a fight

Seeking calm in the middle of the night

Trying to breathe through the storm inside

Fighting the noise that's amplified

Calling on Monday, just to get some relief

Hoping meds can bring me some peace

Can I find my way? Can I break free?

From these chains that keep haunting me

Is there still a light? Somewhere I can see?

Chasing hope in the shadow of my history

Deserving of love? Or just a broken man?

Trying to understand if I can still stand

Karma’s weight or just my pain?

Trying to see if I’ll rise again

Step by step, I’ll find my ground

Silent battles, I’ll break the sound

One day at a time, I’ll heal these scars

Rebuild my hope beneath the stars