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I didn’t know if it was smarter,

Phone call or in-person starter,

But I knew, even through disaster,

You’re my heart — no one else, no after.

You were perfect, damn, flawless grace,

Wife of lifetimes, soul in space.

Didn’t need a thing, just shine —

You were the next big thing, not waiting in line.

Built from dreams and pink crown light,

Miraculous mind, no wrong in sight.

Always planning, future stacked,

I swear the stars got your back.

I’d give my soul for you,

Catch a bullet, walk through fire too.

Never met another you —

You're the kind dreams never outdo.

I’m sorry I panicked and ran,

Could’ve been that better man.

Still praying for one more dance,

If fate allows a second chance.

No Tinder swipes, no fallback sex,

This heart don’t rebound or flex.

I don’t want anybody else,

You were my calm, my core, my self.

Suicidal thoughts whisper cruel,

But leaving you? Made life a ghoul.

No memes hit, no laughs bloom,

Without you, joy left the room.

Wrote this crying, weeks gone by,

Threw up more than I can lie.

I ruined what I held so dear,

Now silence is my only fear.

You and the cats, the family we dreamed,

Now it’s just echoes and could-have-beens.

If you ever feel unsafe at night,

I’m still your bodyguard in the strobe light.

Always ready, no questions asked,

Whether it’s love or just your past.

You deserve more than a broken fool,

I broke it once, now I know the rule.

I’d give my soul for you,

Catch a bullet, walk through fire too.

Never met another you —

You're the kind dreams never outdo.

I’m sorry I panicked and ran,

Could’ve been that better man.

Still praying for one more dance,

If fate allows a second chance.

I don’t expect you to wait or pause,

But this ain’t fake bravado or applause.

Just know if you ever need me near,

I’ll be the shadow whispering clear:

You were never second string,

You were my forever queen.

Sticky man, still at your side —

Always and forever, no matter the tide.

Goodnight, you two… I’m sorry.

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