You said the day I got quiet was the day I stopped caring
Like love just died somewhere out in the air
But you never saw the miles in the words I spent
All the nights I broke trying to make you understand
I was still talking then… God I was trying
Still explaining, still begging, still fighting
Still putting my heart out where you could see
Even when it felt like you were burying me
Every truth I gave you came back like a knife
Every honest word started another fight
I’d say what I meant, plain and true
But by morning those words belonged to you
Twisted and bent till I barely knew
The things you swore I said to you
And somewhere in all of that shouting and blame
I started forgetting the sound of my name
So when the talking stopped it wasn’t peace
It was a man on his knees in defeat
Every word I had was already gone
Spent trying to prove where my heart belonged
And silence…
God, silence don’t lie or pretend
It don’t turn your truth into something again
Sometimes it’s the only place left you can hide
When the person you love keeps tearing you inside
You probably thought you finally won
When the arguing died and the talking was done
But what really died that night in me
Was the last little hope you’d ever hear me
I learned something cold in the middle of pain
Some hearts just love you through a hurricane
And some only hear what they need to believe
No matter how much of your soul you leave
There’s still a thousand words buried in my chest
But I’d rather choke on them than give you the rest
’Cause every time I tried to open that door
You turned my truth into another war
And a man can only bleed so long
Before silence starts feeling like home
So if you’re wondering why I walked away slow
Why the man who fought hardest finally let go
It wasn’t the anger… it wasn’t the pain
It was the moment I finally knew
No truth in the world could get through to you
And the quiet you hated so much that night
Was the last piece of me
I had left to survive.
Lekan_Wode
