Falling again

I’m staring at the ceiling, shadows on my wall,

Fighting all these demons, they don’t let me fall.

The city’s cold tonight, and I feel out of place,

Memories of you still haunt this space.

I light another smoke just to numb the pain,

The rain outside reflects my heart’s refrain.

You said you’d never leave, but you’re gone like a ghost,

Now I’m stuck in the dark, chasing what hurts most.

And I’m falling again, deeper than before,

Knocking on the edge of your closed door.

Can’t break free, you’re stuck in my head,

Loving you feels like lying in my bed of regret.

The moonlight’s bleeding through my cracked window,

Every thought of you cuts deeper, real slow.

I tried to move on, but the past pulls me back,

You’re the drug I crave, but you left me off track.

I see your face in the smoke I exhale,

A broken fairy tale in this cheap motel.

No escape from the ache, it’s carved in my soul,

Your love was a fire, now it’s ash in the cold.

And I’m falling again, deeper than before,

Knocking on the edge of your closed door.

Can’t break free, you’re stuck in my head,

Loving you feels like lying in my bed of regret.

Every night’s a battle, trying to feel alive,

But the ghost of your touch keeps me paralyzed.

Heartbeats slow as the clock runs out,

I’m screaming your name, but there’s no sound.

So I’ll light one more and let it burn,

Hoping someday, you might return.

But until then, I’ll drown in the pain,

Falling again, calling your name.