Why is Heaven so far away

God if you knew I’d love my son this much u knew it’d break my heart into if u saw my tears before they even fell then how could u take him away. U knew I’d miss him like the summer misses the rain I never knew I could hurt so deep or that’d it break me this way I don’t know y you’d take such a young soul with so much life left to live all the questions left in my mind I’m not angry just confused n lost in my own why. I’d trade my soul to see his face or hear him say mom I’m ok. God y is heaven so far away n god whyd u take him so soon i talk to the stars they don’t reply i scream at the moon n ask it y i dont understand how they still shine when all i feel inside seems so dim do u hear my prayers god cuz i feel so small i thought by now my tears would dry but they flow even stronger with each passing day. Id trade my soul to see his face or hear him say mom im ok God why is heaven so far away n god why u take him so soon if i could fly id search the clouds to find him n spend just one more day by his side. If u had a plan god please help me to understand cuz all i know is heaven feels so far away i can’t hardly bare another day filled with all this sorrow n pain oh god why is heaven so far away away!!