A downward spiral

Nobody understands what I’ve been through these days I’ve been through hell and back again again it came from childhood came from everything I’ve been through going off the boarding school at age 10 because I had a learning disability called dyslexia and ADHD barely got to see my parents barely got to see my dad barely got to see anybody that I grew up with then I graduated and I thought everything would be good. 2016 rolls around my stepdad has a condition call mixed tissue disease and then Life continued and he got worse and worse and got very sick and then My Dad biological dad got a cancer. It killed him from the inside and out he was suffering for days months at least for two years in April 4 of 2024. He passed away. I miss him. I got to see him die. I didn’t get to see my stepdad die. I’d rather cry. This is so much trauma people don’t understand losing two people a year apart my stepdad died in August 27 of 2025. I’d rather be stuck in life in prison and see any of my family die. And I’m only 23. I’ve seen a lot of people go like Juice WRLD and XXX I can relate to them, but I would never smoke those drugs. I’ll never do that. I love them both. I wish they were still here, but then not.