What even am I doing can I even feel the pain
Do I need the meds they give for this imbalance in my brain?
As the clocks they just fast forward while I'm laying in my bed
Thinking back to all the better times replaying in my head.
Rain is pouring down now and it's leaking from the roof.
If only I wasn't automatically stuck on searching for the "truth"
I don't even know what happened. Like how long were you depressed?
before you went out and scored your final bag that stopped the beating in your chest
How could I have saved you. Scenarios run through my mind
How could you leave us here for That shit
How could you leave such love behind?
I could go on and on about how fucking much you meant
From the days we'd camp together but weren't allowed to share a tent lol
To the day we hugged your parents
The open casket said it all
You really were so beautiful.
Conquered by a drug so small.
I will never understand why it was you instead of me
I'll never understand the way you left your family
I'll never get the chance to collect rocks and shells with you again
Was not supposed to be your time dude you were my first real friend.
When we would be together... I never had to think ahead.. because just living in the moment is the best fun you'll ever get.
twenty years they passed us quickly.. Never did find where it went
Every day I pray to God i get to see you again.
In the moment there's pain now but because what you did was wrong!
You chose something so small so meaningless, so now you are gone.
How could I have saved you. Scenarios run through my mind
How could you leave us here for That shit
How could you leave such love behind?
I could go on and on about how fucking much you meant
From the days we'd camp together but weren't allowed to share a tent lol
To the day we hugged your parents
The open casket said it all
You really were so beautiful.
Conquered by a drug so small.
