I lit the match and watched it burn
Every lesson taught I never learned
Chasing thrills on a one way street
Left my soul bare but my flesh feels sweet
I built a wall brick by sin
Every excuse let the devil in
Gratitude nah I tossed it aside
Complaints roll out like waves and tides
Late nights chasing shadows in the dark
A carousel of lust left a hollow mark
Every why me drifting with disdain
In my own storm I dance in the rain
Grateful for what I only see lack
Blinded by desires I never look back
He whispered softly I slammed the door
Now it's just echoes on this empty floor
Ghosted grace I turned away
Pushed the light chose the gray
Habit strong spirit weak
He knocked once I didn't speak
Push away
Ghosted grace
The Holy Spirit push away
I built my walls brick by brick tall
No grace to catch me when I fall
Pride in my chest like armor on steel
Who needs a healer when I can't feel
Bitterness brews like a storm in my veins
Every grudge I hold adds weight to my chains
Forgiveness knocks but I deadbolt the door
I'd rather stay hurt than let my soul soar
Spirit whispers I pretend not to hear
Heart’s on lockdown wrapped up in fear
I see the light but I shade my eyes
Afraid it'll burn through my paper thin lies
Self reliance writes checks that my soul can't cash
I'm a spark without flame just cold dead ash
Every mirror I face reflects my scars
I count my pain like I'm counting stars
Unforgiveness eats like rust on steel
But I rather be numb than admit I need to heal
Spirit blocked I can't let it in
Bitterness thick like a coat on my skin
Pride’s my anthem self is my king
But it's lonely in the silence when the angels won't sing
Push away
Ghosted grace
The Holy Spirit push away
I hear the knock but I don't open
Heart like a stone it's barely broken
Pages dusty prayers unspoken
Chained to the grind no doors awoken
II see the signs but I just swerve
Faith on the shelf it don't deserve
My time my mind my will to serve
Ignoring whispers I don't preserve
Echoes faint but I tune em out
The call’s too soft my mind’s in doubt
Shadows dance I'm lost in clout
I sow the drought I block the route
Mirror cracked I can't see clear
Reflections scream but I don't hear
Apathy thick it steers my fear
The voice of love I won't come near
Every seed I didn't sow
Every time I let it go
Every whisper I ignored
Left me empty craving more
Ghosted spirit I let it fade
Running from the truth I made
Silent cries I disobeyed
Ghosted spirit light decayed
Push away
Ghosted grace
The Holy Spirit push away
There you have it
last year I told the devil keep away
This year the Holy Spirit you push away
Armor up
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