[Intro: Ambient Ethereal Synths, Distant Thunder & Minimal Heartbeat Bass]
(Whispered spoken word)
Have I lost my voice?
Where did it go? I used to know exactly who I was.
(Mmm... yeah, just listen to the silence.)
(Have I lost my voice?)
[Verse 1: Close Mic Vocals, Intimate & Moody]
Have I lost my voice in the middle of all this noise?
When did living turn into a routine without a choice?
I wake up heavy with a frown, and I go to bed the exact same way
Faking my interactions just to make it through another day
Going through the motions, but none of it is feeling real
I'm always in the wrong, yeah, that’s just the way I feel.
I'm putting on a mask, but the mask is starting to crack
I'm walking forward but I keep on looking back.
(Just the way I feel... I'm fading out.)
[Pre-Chorus: Faster Pace, Tension Builds with a Slow Synth Riser]
I can't get a grip, I can't figure how to stay in control
Spiraling... (oh, I'm spiraling), I'm losing my soul
What am I missing? Why is the picture so unclear?
Never in a million years did I think I'd end up here!
(I never thought I'd be here!)
[Chorus: Driving Tempo, Layered Gospel-tinged R&B Vocals & Electronic Drums]
Why can't I just speak up?! (Why can't I say it loud?!)
Voice my concerns instead of hiding in the shadow of the crowd!
Where's the honor for the mother? The honor for the father?
Where's the respect for the elders? Why does no one even bother?!
I've got all these heavy truths filling up my empty cup...
So tell me, why can't I just speak up?!
(Why can't I just speak up?!)
[Post-Chorus: Catchy Rhythmic Vocal Chops]
(Speak up, speak up, my mind is on the run)
(Speak up, speak up, look what I have become)
I'm carrying the weight, but I'm biting on my tongue!
(Speak up, speak up...)
[Verse 2: Warmer Tone, Subtly Rhythmic, Neo-Soul Groove]
I'm down on my knees, I'm continuing to ask God for redemption
For the errors of my ways, for the lack of my attention
I left the fast life, left that promiscuity behind
I've been there and done that, it just poisons up the mind
And I haven't gotten anywhere walking down that broken road
Now His love is a heavy blanket pulling me out of the cold
His grace transforms my spirit, His fire is keeping me warm
His mercy is never-ending, pulling me out of the storm!
So why do I still have this paralyzing fear in my soul?
[Pre-Chorus: Faster Pace, Maximum Tension]
I can't get a grip, I can't figure how to stay in control
Spiraling... (oh, I'm spiraling), I'm losing my soul
What am I missing? Why is the picture so unclear?
Never in a million years did I think I'd end up here!
[Chorus: Full Dynamic, Heavy Synth Chord Hits]
Why can't I just speak up?! (Why can't I say it loud?!)
Voice my concerns instead of hiding in the shadow of the crowd!
Where's the honor for the mother? The honor for the father?
Where's the respect for the elders? Why does no one even bother?!
I've got all these heavy truths filling up my empty cup...
So tell me, why can't I just speak up?!
[Bridge: Tempo Slows, Ambient Synths, Raw Emotional Vocal]
This I know for sure... (This I know for sure)
But the words are getting stuck inside my throat.
(Why can't I speak up?)
My struggle is discernment, I'm feeling out of luck.
The lines are getting blurry between the right and the wrong.
It's hard to sing the truth when they're playing a lie's song.
I'm fighting spiritual warfare right inside my mind!
Searching for a peace that I just can't seem to find!
Truth... (Truth...)
Lies... (Lies...)
God, please open up my eyes!
[Guitar & Synth Solo: Emotional, Crying Melody over Heavy Bass]
(Vocal Ad-libs: Open my eyes! Give me my voice! Yeah!)
[Chorus: Stripped Back to Acapella]
[Acapella - Raw Vocals & Snaps Only]
Why can't I just speak up?
Voice my concerns about loving one another...
[Beat Drops Out Heavy - Maximum Cathartic Energy]
Where's the honor for the mother?! The honor for the father?!
Where's the respect for the elders?! Why does no one even bother?!
I've got all these heavy truths filling up my empty cup...
So why can't I just speak up?!
[Outro: Beat Fades slowly, Whispered Vocal, Echoing Reverb]
Why can't I just speak up?
(I'm trying, God, I'm trying...)
Why can't I just speak up?
Truth... lies...
(I'm finding my voice.)
(Honor your mother... honor your father...)
[Final heavy synth chord fades out to rain sounds]
[End