[Title: Sabotage]
[Style: Dark Pop], [Alternative R&B], [Confessional], [Minimalist], [Whisper Vocals]
[Instrumentation: Deep Sub-Bass, Minimal Trap Beat, Hi-Hats, Atmospheric Pads, Spooky Synth]
(Music Starts: A low, ominous synth pad. A slow, tapping hi-hat. A deep bass note swells.)
(Spoken Intro - whispered, close-mic'd, like a secret)
I had it. Peace. It was right there.
I had him... I told him I liked him.
And then... I lit the match.
Why do I always light the match?
Eyepiercinglove.
(Verse 1)
[Music Tag: Whispered, intimate vocal]
This is the peace I said I prayed for
This is the "equally yoked" I've waited for
No drama, no "fix," no emergency
This is the man who... just... sees me.
I said "I like you," plain and true
(Ad-lib: So brave...)
I let my guard down, I let him through
And then the quiet got too loud
My old self... started actin' proud.
(Pre-Chorus)
[Music Tag: Hi-hats get faster. Vocal is rhythmic, anxious.]
The "trophy" woke up, she needed a game
The "fixer" woke up, she needed the pain
'Cause peace is foreign, it's a risk
And chaos... chaos is a quick, familiar fix.
(Chorus)
[Music Tag: Minimal beat drops, deep sub-bass hits]
Oh my God, I think I'm the one
Who likes to sabotage
I build a house of sand and then I'm mad it's gone
I'm the one who lit the match, I'm the one who sent the text
(Ad-lib: That stupid text...)
Just to see what would happen next
I ruin good things 'cause I'm terrified of 'em
'Stead of just... lettin' 'em be.
Yeah, I sabotage... me.
(Verse 2)
[Music Tag: Groove settles. Vocal is full of self-blame.]
A single text, a "truth" I stretched
A "Haitian guy," a man I fetched
Right from my past, a perfect shield
A bomb to make the whole thing yield.
I held my breath, I watched the screen
The most predictable, tragic scene
You put your wall up, (Ad-lib: "It's safer that way...")
And I'm the one who gave you a reason to.
(Pre-Chorus)
[Music Tag: Hi-hats get faster. Vocal is rhythmic, anxious.]
The "trophy" needs to win the game
The "fixer" needs to feel the shame
'Cause peace is foreign, it's a risk
And chaos... chaos is a quick, familiar fix.
(Chorus)
[Music Tag: Minimal beat drops, deep sub-bass hits]
Oh my God, I think I'm the one
Who likes to sabotage
I build a house of sand and then I'm mad it's gone
I'm the one who lit the match, I'm the one who sent the text
(Ad-lib: That stupid text...)
Just to see what would happen next
I ruin good things 'cause I'm terrified of 'em
'Stead of just... lettin' 'em be.
Yeah, I sabotage... me.
(Bridge)
[Music Tag: Music drops to just bass and whisper]
It's easier to be the one who wrecks the room
Than to just sit still and wait for the bloom
It's easier to know just why it ends
Than to trust a man who just says "amen."
(Ad-lib: You were a riddle, I know...)
But I'm the one who made the mess.
I'm the one who couldn't stand the quiet.
(Chorus)
[Music Tag: Final beat drops, heaviest of the song]
Oh my God, I think I'm the one
Who likes to sabotage
I build a house of sand
Eyepiercinglove
