[Title: Sabotage] [Style: Dark Pop], [Alternative R&B], [Confessional], [Minimalist], [Whisper Vocals] [Instrumentation: Deep Sub-Bass, Minimal Trap Beat, Hi-Hats, Atmospheric Pads, Spooky Synth] (Music Starts: A low, ominous synth pad. A slow, tapping hi-hat. A deep bass note swells.) (Spoken Intro - whispered, close-mic'd, like a secret) I had it. Peace. It was right there. I had him... I told him I liked him. And then... I lit the match. Why do I always light the match? Eyepiercinglove. (Verse 1) [Music Tag: Whispered, intimate vocal] This is the peace I said I prayed for This is the "equally yoked" I've waited for No drama, no "fix," no emergency This is the man who... just... sees me. I said "I like you," plain and true (Ad-lib: So brave...) I let my guard down, I let him through And then the quiet got too loud My old self... started actin' proud. (Pre-Chorus) [Music Tag: Hi-hats get faster. Vocal is rhythmic, anxious.] The "trophy" woke up, she needed a game The "fixer" woke up, she needed the pain 'Cause peace is foreign, it's a risk And chaos... chaos is a quick, familiar fix. (Chorus) [Music Tag: Minimal beat drops, deep sub-bass hits] Oh my God, I think I'm the one Who likes to sabotage I build a house of sand and then I'm mad it's gone I'm the one who lit the match, I'm the one who sent the text (Ad-lib: That stupid text...) Just to see what would happen next I ruin good things 'cause I'm terrified of 'em 'Stead of just... lettin' 'em be. Yeah, I sabotage... me. (Verse 2) [Music Tag: Groove settles. Vocal is full of self-blame.] A single text, a "truth" I stretched A "Haitian guy," a man I fetched Right from my past, a perfect shield A bomb to make the whole thing yield. I held my breath, I watched the screen The most predictable, tragic scene You put your wall up, (Ad-lib: "It's safer that way...") And I'm the one who gave you a reason to. (Pre-Chorus) [Music Tag: Hi-hats get faster. Vocal is rhythmic, anxious.] The "trophy" needs to win the game The "fixer" needs to feel the shame 'Cause peace is foreign, it's a risk And chaos... chaos is a quick, familiar fix. (Chorus) [Music Tag: Minimal beat drops, deep sub-bass hits] Oh my God, I think I'm the one Who likes to sabotage I build a house of sand and then I'm mad it's gone I'm the one who lit the match, I'm the one who sent the text (Ad-lib: That stupid text...) Just to see what would happen next I ruin good things 'cause I'm terrified of 'em 'Stead of just... lettin' 'em be. Yeah, I sabotage... me. (Bridge) [Music Tag: Music drops to just bass and whisper] It's easier to be the one who wrecks the room Than to just sit still and wait for the bloom It's easier to know just why it ends Than to trust a man who just says "amen." (Ad-lib: You were a riddle, I know...) But I'm the one who made the mess. I'm the one who couldn't stand the quiet. (Chorus) [Music Tag: Final beat drops, heaviest of the song] Oh my God, I think I'm the one Who likes to sabotage I build a house of sand