Stand Still In The Starlight

In a world of my own…

Reset… reload…

(Start over)

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Stars in the sky paint a power picture,

Glow-in-the-dark dreams on my cracked-out fixture.

I don’t write songs — I write sorrowful scripture,

I’m nobody… just a mysterious figure.

I keep seeing shadows that look just like me,

Broken and empty — alone, incomplete.

Soulless and hopeless, unnoticed and weak,

They called me strange… an emotionless freak.

And it’s too real —

Pop two perkies and a blue pill.

Why she so still?

She like me… she don’t like to feel.

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I’m starting over, resetting my conscious,

Hole in my chest — I don’t know where my heart is.

Smoking all night ’til I’m up with the martians,

Smoking all night ’til my eyes turning scarlet.

I never did understand love,

I never could stay off the drugs.

Took too much — what have I done?

Staring too long at the face of this gun.

I got a choice to make…

I know that I can’t outrun my fate.

Maybe there’s more to the world I hate,

Everyone around me is plastic–fake.

Standing beneath all this acid rain,

Wishing my memories could just erase.

I can’t crawl out of this manic state,

Can’t see the sun even on good days.

Don’t call — don’t hit up my line,

I’m hitting decline, avoid every sign.

She says she’s fine but she’s breaking inside,

We’re both two ghosts in the same bad timeline.

Everyone tells me my future is bright,

But darkness been dimming the edge of my life.

They’ll never know what goes on in my mind…

(They’ll never know, they’ll never know.)

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Stars in the sky paint a power picture,

I love those tiny glow-in-the-dark stickers.

I don’t write songs — I write sorrowful scripture.

I’m nobody… I’m a mysterious figure.

I keep seeing shadows that look just like me,

Broken and empty — alone, incomplete.

Soulless and hopeless, unnoticed and weak…

They called me strange… an emotionless creep.

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I hope my haters all burn in a fire,

That’s the result of the way I’m wired.

Always so sad and I’m always so tired,

Hanging on threads that are frayed like a wire.

Searching for answers I’ll never decipher,

Heaven’s a fantasy — God is a liar.

Don’t understand why He’s so admired,

All of these prayers just left me expired.

Pop me a tab, I’m like oh shit,

Send me a sign — I need omens.

Feel like I’m chosen to speak all the moments

You hide deep inside but you’re scared to expose it.

Let’s go up-up-and-away,

Where nobody calls me insane.

Where nobody tells me to change,

Where love doesn’t rot into pain.

She says she’s fine — but she’s numb like me,

She don’t like to feel, she don’t like to breathe.

I find love in broken things,

She finds love pushing me out of reach.

Now we’re at a standstill —

Wish I was your man still.

Crowd moving wild but my soul stands still,

Fame ain’t a cure for the way wounds feel.

I swear you’d break me if you loved me for real…