[Verse 1]
Twenty years
In a cardboard box
Old band tees
And some ticket stubs
Every choice
Like a ghost that talks
Saying
"This is it"
But it never was
I took roads
That just bent in circles
Kept my fear
Folded in my sleeve
Told the mirror
"You're a slow learner"
Then I turned away
Before I'd believe
[Chorus]
I’ve been lost so long
That it feels like home
But I don’t wanna live
In this undertow
I’ll drag my doubt
Through the dust and stone
If the map’s all wrong
I’ll draw my own
Keep moving forward
Even when it hurts
I’ll bleed out the past
Through every word
If the world says “stop”
I’ll say “one step more”
I’ve been lost before
But I’m heading for the door
[Verse 2]
I made friends
With a quiet sadness
Let it sit
In the passenger seat
It says “turn”
When I hit the blackness
But this time
It can just watch me leave
There’s a list
Of the things I’m missing
Written out
On the back of my hand
I can’t change
Where the rain has driven
But I can choose
Where I let it land
[Chorus]
I’ve been lost so long
That it feels like home
But I don’t wanna live
In this undertow
I’ll drag my doubt
Through the dust and stone
If the map’s all wrong
I’ll draw my own
Keep moving forward
Even when it hurts
I’ll bleed out the past
Through every word
If the world says “stop”
I’ll say “one step more”
I’ve been lost before
But I’m heading for the door
[Bridge]
Yeah the years fall off
Like rust from chain
I was tied to the weight
Of my own name (oh oh)
Maybe sadness
Can teach me grace
But it’s not gonna
Take your place
[Chorus]
I’ve been lost so long
That it feels like home
But I don’t wanna live
In this undertow
I’ll drag my doubt
Through the dust and stone
If the map’s all wrong
I’ll draw my own
Keep moving forward
Even when it hurts
I’ll bleed out the past
Through every word
If my voice shakes hard
I will sing once more
I’ve been lost before
But I’m walking through the door