Little Bear

The shadow of the door stretched on the wall Footsteps were heavier than the night My little hands trembled silently Fear filled my room

The sound of branches breaking on my back For years it never left my mind The child crying "Don't do it" still lives in my nightmares

They told me I grew up But the clock stopped inside me The child crying in a corner Never disappeared

Now I hug my little bear After thirty years Sweet like chocolate milk I'm looking for a world from the darkness

Fruit puree and cartoons Become a blanket for my broken heart Everyone thinks I'm an adult The child inside me sleeps in fear

Loud noises like lightning Bring down the past on me I open a book silently To hide inside the stories

My mother doesn't remember anymore But my nights remember Every scar she forgot Speaks again in my dreams

Don't ask me why I still don't know What can an innocent child do To deserve so much pain?

Now I hug my little bear After the lost years I wander within myself to find a drop of tenderness

Fruit puree and cartoons Like a refuge around me Because my childhood was cut short And I was told I grew up too early

I wasn't bad...

I was just scared...

I wasn't bad...

I was just a child...

Mom...

I just...

I wanted to be loved...

Now I hug my little bear And for the first time I'm not ashamed of it Because that child is still me And I won't let him go

My voice, silenced for years, Turns into a song tonight Even in the midst of darkness The little child chooses to live...