So much pain

I’ve been through so much in my life

Some good and some bad

A jagged knife

Even though I can smile to hide my feelings

Inside I’m drowning

My wounds need healing

I’m in so much pain

But I live

I live despite the pain

I’ve been through so much in my life

Some good and some bad

A jagged knife

Even though I can smile to hide my feelings

Inside I’m drowning

My wounds need healing

I’m in so much pain

But I live

I live despite the pain

The streetlights hum a tune I know too well

Raised by shadows where the echoes dwell

Grandma’s hands were my cradle

My shield

She planted love in a broken field

I keep running but the past won’t fade

A heavy heart

A price I paid

Roots run deep but the shadows grow

Lost my brothers to pain I’ll never know

Tried to hold on but the winds would blow

Still standing here though the cracks still show

I’ve been through so much in my life

Some good and some bad

A jagged knife

Even though I can smile to hide my feelings

Inside I’m drowning

My wounds need healing

I’m in so much pain

But I live

I live despite the pain

I keep running but the past won’t fade

A heavy heart

A price I paid

Roots run deep but the shadows grow

Lost my brothers to pain I’ll never know

Tried to hold on but the winds would blow

Still standing here though the cracks still show

Clouds hang low over my mind

Every step feels like a climb

Shadows whisper truths I can’t deny

Broken mirrors reflect my tries

(Time won't let me heal)

Dreams got cracks but I still hold tight

Fists of hope in the coldest fight

Lost myself in the noise of the game

Found pieces in the ashes of shame

I keep pushing but the scars remain

A heavy heart

A love in vain

Roots run deep but the shadows grow

Lost my brothers to pain I’ll never know

Tried to hold on but the winds would blow

Still standing here though the cracks still show

Pops fought cancer like a soldier

No rest

I wore his strength like a badge on my chest

My brothers fell

One by one they slipped

Life cut the ties I couldn’t keep gripped

Baby momma screaming

Drowning my calm

I’m trying to be more than the ghost of my mom

Tired hands

Tired heart

But I carry the weight

For my kid

For his dreams

For a clean slate

I’ve been through so much in my life

Some good and some bad

A jagged knife

Even though I can smile to hide my feelings

Inside I’m drowning

My wounds need healing

I’m in so much pain

But I live

I live despite the pain

I’ve been through so much in my life

Some good and some bad

A jagged knife

Even though I can smile to hide my feelings

Inside I’m drowning

My wounds need healing

I’m in so much pain

But I live

I live despite the pain