I Loved You Sober by HollowVotive - Zona

I Loved You Sober by HollowVotive - Zona

Lyrics

(Intro - sad piano and soft synth buildup)

**Verse 1**

The bottle’s empty but I’m not

Still drowning in the aftershock

Your name tastes bitter on my tongue

Like every lie I’ve learned to love

You said you’d change, I said I’d wait

We built our hope on borrowed faith

I watched you fade a little more

Every time you swore you were okay

**Pre-Chorus**

I tried to be the air you need

But you were choking next to me

**Chorus**

I loved you sober

I hated who you became

You chased the high, I held the blame

While you slipped further away

I stayed when it hurt

I stayed when you lied

I stayed through the nights

You didn’t survive

Now I’m talking to a memory

That won’t answer me

I loved you sober

But the addiction loved you more than me

**Verse 2**

I learned the sound of your excuses

The way your hands would always shake

You’d say, “This time I really mean it”

I’d say, “I believe you,” either way

I slept with one eye open wide

Counting breaths, afraid you’d die

I played the role of savior

While losing you night after night

**Pre-Chorus**

I gave you all my oxygen

Still you chose the poison in the end

**Chorus**

I loved you sober

I hated who you became

You chased the high, I held the blame

While you slipped further away

I stayed when it hurt

I stayed when you lied

I stayed through the nights

You didn’t survive

Now I’m screaming at a ghost

That still haunts me

I loved you sober

But the addiction loved you more than me

**Bridge**

(slow, broken)

I keep wondering if I failed you

If I should’ve said goodbye sooner

Or held on tighter

Or let you go

(building)

But you don’t lose a war like this

Without casualties

And loving you

Was the death of me

**Break / Half-Time**

I found your demons in my veins

Now I’m scared I’m not the same

I swear I feel you every time

I’m standing on that same damn line

**Final Chorus**

I loved you sober

Now I mourn you alive

You’re breathing but you’re not inside

Just a shadow I recognize

I stayed till there was nothing left

But grief and sleepless nights

I loved you sober

Now I’m learning how to survive

**Outro**

If you ever find your way back home

I hope you don’t hate what you see

I loved you sober

Please remember that part of me

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