Can I be honest

Can I be honest?
If I have to be honest 
I’d say life isn’t easy
But the pain is constant 
I think about death 
More then I think about life
If I have to be honest 
I’d say I’m young 
I shouldn’t be dishonest 
But why does it hurt?
When I’m always alert
Why does life have to be cruel?
Every night I sit and think 
Do I deserve this?
I feel like I’m in a pool 
Pool of hurt
Can I be honest?
This really hurts

Smooth love