[Verse 1]
You said, "Breathe easy"
but my chest is full of gravel
Teeth marks on the steering wheel
from every word we never handled
Ashtray on the windowsill
overflowing with old apologies
You kept every shattered piece
I kept every quiet disease
[Chorus]
It’s not that easy
to walk out clean
When every doorframe
knows what we’ve seen
I did desperate things
desperately
Just to feel your hands
not letting go of me
It’s not that easy
It’s not that easy
[Verse 2]
You sleep with the TV on
so the dark can’t hear you praying
I drive past your exit
twice a week, no headlights, just waiting
Your name in my cracked phone
like a loaded number I don't call
My voice in your voicemail
like a ghost pressed against the wall
[Chorus]
It’s not that easy
to walk out clean
When every doorframe
knows what we’ve seen
I did desperate things
desperately
Just to feel your hands
not letting go of me
It’s not that easy
It’s not that easy
[Bridge]
I said I’d quit you
like I quit drinking
Same old promise
same old sinking
If there’s a cure
it’s not belief
It’s pulling you out
of every rotten dream
[Chorus]
It’s not that easy
to walk out clean
When every doorframe
knows what we’ve seen
I did desperate things
desperately
Carved your initials
deep inside of me
It’s not that easy
You’re not that easy
to leave