VERSE 1
If you only knew what it cost me to breathe
I’m the walls in my house, yeah, they built outta me
They tellin’ me to slow down, I say “watch me speed”
Peepin’ through the window just to watch me bleed
Window seat, I’m airborne but still grounded
Heart too big for the places they found it
Talkin’ to ghosts in the silence I’m surrounded
Tryna make peace with the demons I’m drownin’
They want calm, I been livin’ in sirens
Every win got a scar right beside it
I don’t sleep, I just blink till the violence
Every dream way too expensive to buy in
Built from pressure and time
From “you up next” to “you outta your mind”
If I stall out, I vanish, I’m gone
So I stay runnin’ like the end is divine
Barely breathin’ but I’m still movin’
Every mark on my chest still bruisin’
⸻
HOOK
They don’t see the nights that I shake
They don’t feel the pills that I take
They don’t hear the promise I made
So this pain don’t go to waste
If you only knew what it cost me to breathe
I’m these walls in my house, yeah, they built outta me
They say “slow down,” I say “watch me speed”
Look through the window just to see me bleed
⸻
VERSE 2
If you only knew what it took me to get here
Worst fears couldn’t touch it, this shit bring tears
Know it ain’t the drugs that made me this way
I’m just takin’ what I’m given to survive these days
Run out in a week, still function the same
You couldn’t keep up even wearin’ my name
Put on my Chucks, trip over the truth
Shoes too big, yeah, they swallowin’ you
Stay the fuck out my lane
I know you think that we the same
I shine too bright, put a light on you lames
I don’t know what’s gotten into me
But I’m sick of this industry
This shop ‘bout to be history
I dug myself way too deep
Turnin’ these words into imagery
Only way I ever sleep
48-hour days, this pressure been buildin’ me
These walls flexin’ when I breathe
These cigarettes is killin’ me
Chain-smokin’ like the drags bring epiphanies
Bad habits turn the pain into prophecies
Ain’t really no stoppin’ me
That’s why they all knockin’ me
They can’t do what I do, so they throwin’ shade — anomaly
Better study astrology
If you thinkin’ ‘bout toppin’ me
