I'VE BEEN SAYING I'M FINE

My soul's tired...

Not from one bad day,

Not from one bad year,

Just tired...

From carrying what nobody sees.

Another long night staring at the ceiling fan,

Trying to make peace with the cards life dealt my hand.

Wearing a smile so nobody sees the cracks,

Carrying a lifetime of weight upon my back.

Every "How you doing?" gets the same reply,

A practiced little answer while a piece of me dies.

Everybody sees the surface, nobody sees the war,

The battles that I'm fighting behind a closed door.

My soul is tired from surviving every storm,

Trying to stay warm when life feels cold and worn.

I've spent so many years just trying to belong,

Now I'm not even sure where my heart went wrong.

And every day I'm fading,

But nobody can tell,

I'm drowning in the silence,

Living in my own hell.

I've been saying I'm fine

Truth is I'm dying inside

Truth is

I can't wait to escape this life

I've been saying I'm fine

Truth is that's all a lie

Truth is I have nobody on my side

I've been saying I'm fine

Truth is

No one really cares

Truth is I've been alone all my life

I've been saying I'm fine

I've been saying I'm fine

I've been saying I'm fine

I'm tired of pretending that everything's okay,

Tired of watching pieces of myself fade away.

I've carried disappointment like a stone in my chest,

Searching for some peace but never finding rest.

My soul is tired of losing people that I love,

Tired of looking down when I should look above.

Tired of being strong when I'm barely holding on,

Wondering how I keep moving when all my strength is gone.

Maybe all I ever wanted was somebody to stay,

Somebody to listen when I had nothing to say.

Somebody just to love me

Instead I learned to bury every hurt and every scar,

While the world kept spinning like it didn't know who you are.

My soul is tired,

Not because it wants to quit,

But because it's carried pain

For far too long with it.

My soul is tired,

But somewhere deep inside,

There's still a little ember

Refusing to die.

So if you hear this song,

Know you're not alone,

Some of us are fighting battles

Nobody has ever known.

Tired of being the one who gives love

Tired of being the one who has everyone's back

Tired being in love alone

Tired, tired, tired, soo soo tired..

I've been saying I'm fine

Truth is I'm dying inside

Truth is

I can't wait to escape this life

I've been saying I'm fine

Truth is that's all a lie

Truth is I have nobody on my side

I've been saying I'm fine

Truth is

No one really cares

Truth is I've been alone all my life

I've been saying I'm fine

I've been saying I'm fine

I've been saying I'm fine

My soul's tired...

But it's still beating.

My soul's tired...

But it's still breathing.

I've been saying I'm fine...

Maybe it's time

Maybe I just want to escape this pain.

Maybe I just want a place wear my soul can rest..

I've bee. Saying I'm fine .