I’m still here

I learned to be small so I wouldn’t be seen

Folded myself into what they would need

Every “ I’m fine “ was a lie. I rehearsed

Putting me last, but pretending it worked

I wore their words like they were my skin

letting their voices live under my ribs

Even now when I’m finally free

They still echo inside of me 

And I don’t know how to unlearn the pain

Or separate truth from what they ingrained

But I’m still trying anyway

I’m still here even after all of it

Every scar every piece of it

Didn’t take me out

I was bent, I was breaking underneath the weight

But I’m learning how to separate

Who I am from the doubt

Even when I feel like I’m too far gone

I’m still here… holding on 

I hate the mirror on my worst days

Every flaw feels like it’s screaming my name

Like I’m the problem I can’t outrun

Like I’ll never be anyone

But I’m so tired of carrying blame

For things that were never mind to take

So I’m letting go, piece by piece

Of everything they made me believe 

And maybe I don’t have to be perfect to heal

Maybe I’m allowed to just feel

And still be worth something real 

I’m still here even after all of it

Every scar every piece of it

Didn’t take me out

I was bent, I was breaking underneath the weight

But I’m learning how to separate

Who I am from the doubt

Even when I feel like I’m too far gone

I’m still here… holding on

You don’t get to live in my head anymore

You don’t get to decide what I’m worth

I survived everything you left in me

And I’m still learning how to be free

I’m still here - yeah I made it through the worst

Every lie, every word that hurt

Didn’t take me down

I was lost, I was numb, I was barely alive

But there’s something here inside

That I finally found

Even when I shake, even when it’s hard

I’m still here… and that’s a start