Crowded Silence

I’m sitting in a room full of people that I love,

But my mind drifts off like it’s somewhere far above.

They’re laughing, talking, living in the moment right beside me,

And I’m nodding, but inside it feels like no one’s really finding me.

I know they’d hold me up if I ever let the words fall,

But I keep them tucked away behind a quiet little wall.

It’s hard to feel connected when your heart is moving slow,

Hard to let them in when you barely even know.

I’m surrounded, but I’m lonely in a way I can’t explain,

Warm hands all around me, but I’m stuck inside my brain.

They love me, and I feel it, but the distance still remains —

Trying to bridge the space between the world and all my pain.

I watch them shine, every story, every smile they share,

And I’m grateful for the comfort of just knowing they are there.

But sometimes love feels heavy when you’re carrying your own storm,

And even in a crowded room, the quiet feels the warmest form.

I’m learning how to speak up when the silence starts to grow,

Learning how to trust that they won’t ever let me go.

Maybe feeling lonely doesn’t mean I’m truly on my own —

Maybe healing starts with letting myself be known.

I’m surrounded, but I’m lonely in a way I can’t explain,

Warm hands all around me, but I’m stuck inside my brain.

They love me, and I feel it, but the distance still remains —

Trying to bridge the space between the world and all my pain.

One day I’ll let the walls fall down slow,

Let the people that I love see the parts I never show.

Till then I’m walking forward, even when I feel alone —

Trying to find connection in a place I can call my own.