Up down back forth

Up down back forth. Over and over again. Invested time in. Somethin going all in. Just seemin annoyin. Head spinnin. Mind racin. What the fukk is wrong man. Spit on the floor fukk it. Crying inside don't think it's good enough. Fukk.

Seemingly repeating not doing anything wrong just being yourself. Good at tge start but fall8ng short. Just a good time it's all you seem to be worth. Party over everyone sober kicked out the door. What the fukk. Put it all up agin. Can't help seeing it falling apart just like Everytime before. Fukk. Not getting it. Can't handle another loss. It's bull shit. Thoughts of everything was good but aparrently you missed it.

Up dow back forth. Over and over again. Invested time in. Somethin going all in. Just seemin annoyin. Head spinnin. Mind racin. What the fukk is wrong man. Spit on the floor fukk it. Crying inside don't think it's good enough. Fukk.

Must have missed it. Missed that. Missed that turning point. Never see it but feel it when it hit like a Mac truck. No remorse just boom pow splatter now. Not a worry from others just emotions wiped off the feet. Fukk life it's just skippin on repeat. What's gonna be good enough for life. Probably not mine. Sometimes it's got you in a ball wanting to end it all but gotta see it out. It's always out. Never kept. Just not worth a full life. Red strings hangin your heart out to dry. To bad my eyes can't too.

Up dow back forth. Over and over again. Invested time in. Somethin going all in. Just seemin annoyin. Head spinnin. Mind racin. What the fukk is wrong man. Spit on the floor fukk it. Crying inside don't think it's good enough. Fukk.

Why is the question asked over and over again. Just don't understand. Family friends relationships nothing permanent. Aparrently your the only unconditional one. Judgment constantly never a good verdict. Hung jury. Unfortunately for me. Heart on the sleeve. Fukk me. Not good enough for some people. Go all in and regrets to come but big dumb dumb always going for it. Need to put walls up nothing is good enough. Everyone seems to think you suck what the fukk. Good Karma really not helping me right now. Just like pow. Dead now felling shadow gravy for my future. Discarded like rubbish. Trash nothing to last mebt to die alone.

Up dow back forth. Over and over again. Invested time in. Somethin going all in. Just seemin annoyin. Head spinnin. Mind racin. What the fukk is wrong man. Spit on the floor fukk it. Crying inside don't think it's good enough. Fukk.