No Control

Are you watching me now?

Are you feeling this?

I’m wide awake

And I hate it

Voices crawl inside my head

Tell me I’m better off dead

Every step feels rigged and fake

Every breath I choke and take

Hands shake when I clench my jaw

I don’t trust shit, I don’t trust God

You stare at me like I’m the threat

Like I’m the one you should forget

You push me down

I push back

You cross the line

I snap

CAN YOU FEEL ME NOW?

I’M LOSING CONTROL

LOCKED IN MY SKIN

BUT I’M READY TO GO

DON’T TELL ME HOW

TO FIX MYSELF

I’M NOT BROKEN—

I’M SOMETHING ELSE

I see through you, fake as hell

Smile sharp, you ring the bell

Every promise tastes like rust

Every word I can’t trust

I bite back what I wanna say

One more push and I’ll break away

I’m not weak, I’m just restrained

Pressure builds inside my veins

You push me down

I push back

You cross the line

I SNAP

CAN YOU FEEL ME NOW?

I’M LOSING CONTROL

LOCKED IN MY SKIN

BUT I’M READY TO GO

DON’T TELL ME HOW

TO FIX MYSELF

I’M NOT BROKEN—

I’M SOMETHING ELSE

Step back

Shut up

Look at what you made

I’m done

I’M DONE

I’M DONE

CAN YOU SEE ME NOW?

I’M DONE BEING SMALL

I WON’T STAY QUIET

I WON’T CRAWL

THIS IS ME

NO FILTER, NO HELP

I’M NOT BROKEN—

I’M MYSELF