Hi, my Name Is Joe

(big sigh)

Hi, my name is Joe. And if you’re expecting a pity speech, you’re in the wrong fucking room.

They said, “Name your demons.” So I gave them faces.

Each one knows their place. Each had their time and space.

I keep them locked up just in case.

Years of abuse. Years…

of a soul unsaved.

Years where the only thing I’ve ever known was rage.

Pockets empty. Running on fumes.

Kicked in so many doors just to light my dark rooms.

I use to be so young. Dumb.

And so full of cum.

built from panther piss & barbed wire

I use play with death for fun.

Taught to flinch, then taught to swing.

I broke my fucking halo and melted my jaded wings.

They tried to cage me in labels and generic meds

While I sharpened my aim, aiming straight for their heads.

Ain’t no therapy fixed what my fists defined.

Ain’t no peace treaty when the peace treaty’s dead and flatlined.

I’m not a victim, but I am your fucking backlash.

You lit the match — now we’re gonna watch hell come to pass.

Yeah,I made friends with monsters.

I asked, “Will you make me stronger?”

Now we talk like twin brothers.

Now we Hunt like are 1 in each other.

Every sob story? Came from many broken homes.

Me and all my demons — this is where we built my throne.

Hi, my name is Joe. I’m not just a survivor.

I’m the fucking echo, I’m your secret desire

Every broken thought, every crack line I ever smoked

I’m the crack in the halo, the fire you can’t ever fucking hold.

I’m not here to be saved — but

“I’m here to learn control”

You prayed while I bled. You preached while I starved.

You judged from your pulpit while I was sleeping in my car.

The exes always cursed me, even when fists flew.

A bunch of fucking fake friends, jaded lovers, and a whole lot of judges too.

So I buried the soft boy deep into the fucking ground.

In a back dark alley. I promise you that motherfucker will never be found.

Woo.

They told me to heal. I said, “How and why?”

They said, “You have to forgive yourself.” I said, “Fuck, whelp, I guess I’ll just die.”

I’ve seen God in the crack pipe flames.

While the devil and I danced that motherfucker whispered my name.

This ain’t redemption. This ain’t just reclamation.

This ain’t just a comeback — this is fucking detonation.

This ain’t just a comeback this is me leaving a fucking wasteland.

Hi, my name is Joe. I’m the chaos you didn’t know.

I’m the quiet before the storm. I’m the one that breaks the norms.

I’m the down heat below. I’m the scream in your echo.

I’m the rhythm and rhyme in this flow.

The ghost in your shadow.

The hero you fear.

But I’m also the fucking villain

That you wish you didn’t know.

Thank you for letting me share.