Wandering Through the Dark

In the silence of the night, I hear whispers loud and clear,

Echoes of my battles, my heart filled with fear.

A struggle for existence, feeling chained to this bed,

Thoughts of giving up swirl like a storm in my head.

Every shadow feels like judgment, every turn holds a fight,

PTSD weighs heavy, I’m lost in the night.

Each nightmare a reminder, like phantoms in my soul,

While love tries to reach me, I’m still losing control.

The world feels so demanding, can’t they see I’m barely here?

Like a wanderer in darkness, just searching for a cheer.

But every time I find the light, it flickers out like hope,

Holding on's a battle, a crumbling, fragile rope.

I just want to give up, and fade into the night,

Let the pain slip away, stop this endless fight.

Can’t they hear my heart breaking? Can’t they feel my despair?

Wandering through my memories, it’s a weight I cannot bear.

Yet within the chaos, a whisper might call,

A glimmer of tomorrow, a chance not to fall.

Fighting through the dark, even when hope seems thin,

Maybe there’s a way to let the light back in.

But the echoes of my past, they dance like haunting ghosts,

Every word still lingers, like a pain that never boasts.

I’m tired of the battles, tired of the schemes,

But I’m holding onto something, it’s flickering in dreams.

So I’ll keep on searching, for moments that can heal,

In the silence, find my courage, learn to slowly feel.

Though the weight of my sorrow feels heavy on my chest,

I’ll carry on my journey, I’ll fight to find my rest.

I just want to give up, but maybe I’ll hold tight,

Through the darkest alleys, a glimmer shows its light.

I’ll weave the threads of pressure into fabric of my fight,

With every single heartbeat, I’ll find my way tonight.

So in the silence, I’ll breathe, let the shadows start to fade,

With the love that surrounds me, I’m more than just afraid.

Though the journey’s ever rocky and the nights feel long and cold,

I’ll keep on moving forward, through the dark, I’ll be bold.