[Intro - gutteral scream]
DON’T—
SAY HIS NAME LIKE IT STILL MEANS SOMETHING
I watched the sky collapse in silence
No hands reached down—no divine intervention
Just bodies stacked like unanswered prayers
So where was He?
[Verse 1 - gutteral scream]
You built your temples out of bones
Then called it mercy, called it home
Taught me to kneel, to beg, to break
For something that would never wake
I carved devotion into my chest
Just to feel like I knew Him best
But all I found beneath the skin—
Was empty space… and nothing in it
[Pre-Chorus - whispered]
You said He sees
You said He cares
Then why was I the only one there?
[Chorus - gutteral scream]
I DON’T BELIEVE IN GODS ANYMORE
I HEARD YOUR PRAYERS HIT THE FLOOR
I WATCHED THEM DIE INSIDE MY HANDS
AND STILL YOU TOLD ME “THIS WAS PLANNED”
IF THIS IS FAITH—THEN TAKE IT BACK
I WON’T KNEEL WHERE THE LIGHT TURNS BLACK
I GAVE YOU EVERYTHING I WAS—
AND YOU GAVE ME NOTHING… BACK
[Break – Silence]
[Verse 2 - softly sang, emotional, piano]
…you didn’t speak like that
Not like them
You didn’t try to fix the silence
You just sat inside it with me
And I didn’t have to pretend
I wasn’t still shaking
[Pre-Chorus 2 - whispered]
You didn’t ask me what I lost
You didn’t try to make it make sense
You just… stayed
[Soft sang Chorus - piano]
If you’re something I can hold onto
Don’t disappear when I need you
Don’t turn into another ghost
Another name I almost knew
If you’re real, then stay right here
Even if I don’t believe
In anything beyond this moment—
You’re enough for me
[Build]
I can feel it coming back
That weight, that pull, that collapse
Don’t let me go there again
[Breakdown - gutteral scream]
I WON’T PRAY
I WON’T BOW
NOT AGAIN—
NOT. NOW.
YOU TOOK EVERYTHING FROM ME
AND CALLED IT “HOLY DESIGN”
SO IF THERE’S A GOD STILL WATCHING—
HE CAN WATCH ME DRAW THE LINE
[Final Chorus - gutteral scream]
I don’t believe in gods anymore
But I believe in the way you pull me close
Like I’m not something broken beyond repair
I don’t believe in gods anymore
But if there’s anything left worth fighting for—
It’s the way you’re still standing there
[Outro - whispered with piano]
No heaven
No throne
Just you…
Or maybe I’m still alone
