[Verse 1]
I keep a courtroom in my chest
With every charge I know by heart
The judge wears yesterday's regret
The bailiff says I tore apart
I leave my keys beside the door
Then tell myself I don't belong
I count the reasons to be gone
And miss the one that says hold on
[Pre-Chorus]
But underneath the verdict
A small voice clears its throat
Not loud enough to save me yet
Still, it refuses to go
[Chorus]
I am not every thought that cuts me down
Not the poison dressed as truth
When the room inside me turns against me
I will make it through
I can call somebody, say the words out loud
I can stay until this passes through
These monsters know my name, but they don't own me
I will make it through
[Verse 2]
I meet the mirror in the hall
It lists the ways I came up short
I wash my hands, I miss the call
I build a wall and call it fort
The night puts questions on the bed
I do not have to answer now
I put both feet against the floor
And let the morning find me out
[Pre-Chorus]
A cup left by the window
A blanket on the chair
Small ordinary evidence
That someone might still care
[Chorus]
I am not every thought that cuts me down
Not the poison dressed as truth
When the room inside me turns against me
I will make it through
I can call somebody, say the words out loud
I can stay until this passes through
These monsters know my name, but they don't own me
I will make it through
[Bridge]
If I disappear, let it be
Into a hallway full of hands
A friend who doesn't need a speech
A quiet place where I can stand
No grand promise, no perfect cure
Just one more breath, then one more choice
I have been cruel enough to myself
Tonight I will believe another voice
[Final Chorus]
I am not every thought that cuts me down
Not the worst thing I have done
When the room inside me turns against me
I will wait for sun
I can call somebody, say the words out loud
I can stay until the danger moves
These monsters know my name, but they don't own me
I have more to lose
[Outro]
The courtroom empties, one by one
The door is open, morning comes
I am still here, I am still here
And that is where I will begin