Screaming Inside

Verse 1

Last night I was fucking raging, couldn’t breathe,

Every nerve lit up like fire, I just wanted to leave.

Verse 2

Couldn’t keep my mouth from bleeding,

Couldn’t calm the burning wire.

Every thought cut sharper, every word meant to sting,

But truth is, I was just crumbling,

Hating what the night would bring,

Ready to disappear, erase my mark.

Pre-Chorus 1

But you caught me before I could fade,

Pulled me back from the edge I’d made.

And I hated how I sounded,

Cold and cutting, sharp as hell.

But it’s easier to bite than bleed

When you’re not doing well.

Chorus

I was screaming inside, feeling like shit,

Felt like a bitch, like I’d gone too far,

Just trying to protect these scars.

Wanted to vanish, fade out of sight,

So no one could see me lose the fight.

Thought the world would be better if I just quit,

But you wouldn’t let me go, wouldn’t let me fall.

You said, “We’re here to help you through it all.”

I’m not bulletproof, I’m not fucking steel,

I just don’t want to show what I feel.

Verse 3

I thought if I pushed you harder,

I could keep my own walls up,

But I ended up just spilling

All the shit I’d tried to lock up.

I felt like a bitch, like I’d ruined my name,

Drowning in guilt, swallowing shame.

Verse 4

I was halfway to just saying “fuck it,”

Halfway out the goddamn door,

When a friend pulled me back,

Said words I won’t ignore.

You told me secrets don’t have to be told,

That trust is a fire you help me hold.

Pre-Chorus 2

You told me, don’t take it to heart, it’ll only break you,

People who care won’t try to make you feel small.

Chorus

I was screaming inside, feeling like shit,

Felt like a bitch, like I’d gone too far,

Just trying to protect these scars.

Wanted to vanish, fade out of sight,

So no one could see me lose the fight.

Thought the world would be better if I just quit,

But you wouldn’t let me go, wouldn’t let me fall.

You said, “We’re here to help you through it all.”

I’m not bulletproof, I’m not fucking steel,

I just don’t want to show what I feel.

Bridge

If I could rewind, I’d bite my tongue,

Keep the war inside, keep the fire unsung.

But last night I cracked, I finally dropped,

Scared as hell ‘cause I couldn’t stop.

It’s not weakness to lean, it’s not wrong to cry,

You stood beside me, wouldn’t let me say goodbye.

I’ll hold that night when I wanted to run,

You gave me hope, made me feel like someone.

Chorus (final)

I was screaming inside, feeling like shit,

Felt like a bitch, like I’d gone too far,

Just trying to protect these scars.

Wanted to vanish, fade out of sight,

So no one could see me lose the fight.

Thought the world would be better if I just quit,

But you wouldn’t let me go, wouldn’t let me fall.

You said, “We’re here to help you through it all.”

I’m not bulletproof, I’m not fucking steel,

I just don’t want to show what I feel.

Outro

That last message…

We’re here to help you...

Don’t go forever....

People will love you for who you are.

Please… don’t hurt yourself. It’s pointless.

Thought the world would be better if I just quit,

But you wouldn’t let me go, wouldn’t let me fall.

You said, “We’re here to help you through it all.”

I’m not bulletproof, I’m not fucking steel,

I just don’t want to show what I feel.

Outro

That last message…

We’re here to help you...

Don’t go forever....

People will love you for who you are.

Please… don’t hurt yourself. It’s pointless.