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I feel like a mistake

Something that was accidentally made.

Never was to behave in a world

That was supposed to keep me safe.

Only gave me rain

Only gave me pain.

Always living life inside my brain.

Was never meant to be something

Worth keeping. Let alone to be saved

But what I can say

How else am I supposed to tell

If I refuse to show anything that’s been breaking me down melting on the floor

With tears. Letting fear enter in my haven again and pretend it ain’t there as it just stares at me.

I feel like I was never meant to heal

I feel like all of my emotions are bills and I’m over due to pay attention to know

That I am not alone

Even when I’m in a room full with people who listen to me but I’m too afraid they will eventually leave, eventually believe

That I’m not the person they see , not strong even to calm his storms and let

My anger swarm among the confusion

That refuses to defuse the rules of engagement