[verse 1]
It was was never luck, she had to balance her meals-
She Used to be in cuts where they made fraudulent deals,-
They swallowing pills, the women either fucking or they polishing steel.
That pain never heals, she knows shes being used but she gon swallow it still
You’ll probably be amazed at what it takes to become-
[switch-up]
A devil in Prada, she sucking for dollars,
doing anything that she can to make it in college,
Lately getting no sleep, she’s beat-, and she ain’t stopping for nada.
She ain’t feel the need to stop for a thing.-
But then she met a guy who told her “follow your dreams”,
She started telling him bout her traumas, he bought her a ring,
She started to wonder about it farther, “why would he bother?”,-
momma often taught her that life -can be the heaviest thing.
[piano solo plays]
[Hook]
She hides her hurt in hotel rooms,
Says it’s just work, but she’s gone too soon.
Her smile is stitched, her silence loud…
She learned to float, but still feels drowned.
She don’t cry when the night gets cold,
Just counts her breath and lets him hold
What’s left of her she didn’t lose—
In all the things she didn’t choose.
[Verse 2]
Two years later,—living together,
It’s going alright,
This guy never abuses her, that’s what you thought right?
—You thought right!
She questions his whereabouts lately,
Even when he honest, she still feels like he fakin,
She searchin for safety,
Raised in a house where love turned ugly on the daily.
[switch-up]
started checking his phone while he sleepin, she steady creeping,
Lookin’ for something, she can’t be tweaking for no reason.
He never hit her, he wasn’t bitter and he never cheated,
But yet she feeling like he’s gotta be hiding some demons.
She calls her mama just to vent how she feel,
Her mama say, “Baby, don’t trust nothin cuz men never tell,
Men will lie. Men will leave. You better guard that heart,
’Cause a man’ll play you sweet so they can tear you apart.”
Now she movin’ different.
Cold shoulder and fights over dishes.
He notices—says, “Why you always think that I’m slippin’?”
With no valid reason, shit is just a vibe that she feeling,
He breaks down—says, “I can’t keep tryin’,
When all I ever did was try to love you-
fuck!- you can’t keep lying,
He packs a bag. Says he loves her, but he can’t keep crying,
Leaves his key on the table- proceeds to speed while he driving.
Headlights blur in the rain—he swervin’, barely survivin’,
Heart full of pain, he ain’t see the red light-blinded.’
Glass breakin’, time slowin’, wheel gets violent.
Now she sittin’ alone, prayin’ he gon maybe reply,
But the phone never ring.
She steady questioning why.
Only sound was a knock and a name.
An deeper voice… and that’s when the world went grey
She screamed so loud, that it even cracked through the paint.
The same love she pushed away—now it’s sealed in a grave.
[hook plays again]
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