(Intro)
Yeah…
It’s getting bad again.
Can’t tell what’s real anymore.
You ever feel like your own mind’s trying to kill you?
Yeah…
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(Verse 1)
I been staring at the ceiling, tryna find where I went wrong,
Every thought’s a loaded weapon, been cocked back way too long.
I keep telling me to breathe, but my lungs don’t listen,
Everything I touch breaks down, guess I’m built from friction.
Used to dream about better, now I dream about rest,
Wake up heavy, same weight on my chest.
People say “you’ll be fine,” yeah, I heard that before,
But they don’t see the blood on the bathroom floor.
I don’t need attention, I need peace,
My head’s a warzone, I can’t sleep.
I pray to a God I’m not sure hears me,
Whispers echo back, “No one’s near me.”
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(Hook)
I’m losing control,
This ain’t a phase, this is taking my soul.
I’m breaking again,
Trying to smile through the pain, but it’s wearing thin.
Every scar tells a story I won’t show,
I’m losing control… yeah, I’m losing control.
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(Verse 2)
I got habits that hide my hurt,
Fake laughs that disguise the dirt.
I built walls so high no one climbs,
Then complain that I’m alone all the time.
I’m a mess I can’t clean,
Heart like a crime scene.
People see the mask, but not the scream.
I’m drowning quiet in my routine.
Tell me, what’s hope when it don’t stay?
What’s truth when it fades away?
I keep saying I’ll change someday,
But I don’t know if I want to be saved.
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(Hook)
I’m losing control,
This ain’t a phase, this is taking my soul.
I’m breaking again,
Trying to smile through the pain, but it’s wearing thin.
Every scar tells a story I won’t show,
I’m losing control… yeah, I’m losing control.
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(Bridge)
Yeah, I don’t trust my own reflection,
It lies with such perfection.
Every time I climb, I fall again,
I call for help, but it’s just the wind.
They say pain’s a teacher, so what’s the lesson?
Maybe I’m the question that has no answer.
Heart full of chaos, veins full of thunder,
If this is life… I’m going under.
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(Final Hook / Outro)
I’m losing control (yeah),
The darkness don’t let go (no).
Every time I fight, I fall,
Can’t tell who I am at all.
Yeah, I’m losing control…
And I don’t know how to take it slow.
This depression’s got me in a chokehold…
I’m losing control.
