I say I’m Fine

You ask how I’m doin’, I force a grin,

Say, “I’m good,” though I’m breakin’ within.

I’ve got this line memorized so well,

Even I believe it sometimes myself.

I don’t want you carryin’ my weight,

Don’t wanna pull you into this state.

So I nod, I smile, and change the tone,

Then go back to fightin’ this war alone.

I say I’m fine, ‘cause it’s easier that way,

Than explainin’ the mess I face each day.

Don’t wanna scare you, don’t wanna fall apart,

So I just keep patchin’ this broken heart.

You’d never know from the words I say…

But no, I ain’t fine.

I’m just fadin’ away.

I answer texts a day too late,

Make excuses I know sound fake.

I hate how far from me I’ve gone,

But I’m tired of feelin’ like I don’t belong.

I see the light in everyone’s face,

While I sit here stuck in the same dark place.

And even though I want to be seen,

I keep on sayin’ what I don’t mean.

I say I’m fine, ‘cause it’s easier that way,

Than explainin’ the mess I face each day.

Don’t wanna scare you, don’t wanna fall apart,

So I just keep patchin’ this broken heart.

You’d never know from the words I say…

But no, I ain’t fine.

I’m just fadin’ away.

Maybe someday I’ll find the grace

To speak the truth, to show my face.

But till then, I’ll just repeat the line—

“I’m okay. I swear. I’m fine.”

I say I’m fine, but I’m sinkin’ fast,

Holdin’ tight to a shatterin’ mask.

Wish someone’d see through this disguise,

And ask again — not just passin’ by.

‘Cause deep down I’m just wantin’ to say…

No, I ain’t fine.

But I hope to be someday.

Yeah, I hope to be… someday.