Mental illness

Bipolar Bipolar and depressed anxiety feel like death

(Life is real or fake so much hiding pain I can't hold)

looking for a better life gun is my wife pain is my life can't even believe I am still alive but (bipolar issues got me smiling and at the same time I cry) feel like my life is a mess is this a test taking so many bullets like I need a vest because I don't speak but I am depressed to the end almost no friends (just only support is my family) Felling like I am dead alive depression makes me laugh and cry look at the sky asking why all ways try my best but it's not enough (just only support is my family) I want to be my self again chilling having got times whit family and friends but I can't pretend this might be the end bye bye sorry but I just don't want to feel no more mental pain

(bipolar issues got me smiling and at the same time I cry)

(Life is real or fake so much hiding pain I can't hold) depression is real your peace will steal and it can kill