My head

Im in my head I can’t sleep. my thoughts are loud I can barely hear myself think I’m scared because she’s lied to me in the past I’m scared she’s lying to me about everything my head hurts I want to cry it’s to the point my chest hurts and my body aches I can’t take it I need to get it out but I feel like a burden to everyone whenever I open up I’m sorry you have to deal with me I have problems that I don’t know how to solve but I do my best to make her happy but all I get is a quick “I love you” and then she’s annoyed again and want to be alone but she doesn’t want to be alone she wants away from me it’s me I’m the fucking problem I feel like I can’t do anything without causing some sort of problem and yet I’m here pouring it all out while still thinking in my head that I’m a burden to everyone I can’t escape it my thoughts don’t go away I say I’m doing okay but I’m breaking into millions of pieces I’m cracking non stop and I can’t seem to stop it I’m sorry that you guys have to deal with me im sorry that I exist.